I am scared of exercise

I have a confession to make. I am scared of exercising. I have been scared ever since my incident in June. I had been working out regularly until my trip to the hospital, but I haven't broken a sweat since then. Somehow I am scared that exercising or exerting myself will make me sick somehow again. I know it is a very odd connection to make but my brain is associating those things together. I am almost scared to pick up the phone and call James to get started. I am scared it will make me sick all over again. But I feel terrible and FAT and bloated and depressed. I hope exercise can help all of those things. I know they can. I will call him.