getting started

I don't traditionally do new year's resolutions. But I have decided to turn my eyes forward and look towards a year of good health. 2008 was a real eye opener for me. I learned you could lose a bunch of weight (I have lost over 100 pounds) and still not be healthy. In June of this past year I spend a week in ICU with a complication from diabetes. I almost lost my life to a fairly common complication of which I had never heard an utterance. I thought I was doing everything right, being "healthy," but I wasn't. I am spending this year discovering what it really means to be healthy in mind, body and spirit. I have a group of people ready to assist, I know I cannot do it alone. I know I can't. I am still very angry about having an illness that absolutely controls my life. I am deeply saddened that I feel like this was preventable. I am humbled that it was not my time to leave this earth. I am thankful that I have the wonderful support of my beautiful spouse. I am terrified that I will end up in the hospital again. I am determined I won't. Health. I will find out what it means. I will attain it.